The Unwritten Soul: why ?

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

why ?

Why?

I really have a lot of thing to say. If you give me one big bottle, I think my emotional will be full than that. Going to burst out soon. I thought I can handle it properly. But I guess I will just pour it in my blog. Nobody to talk to. It seemed like I’m losing a lot of friends. And he won’t understand for what I have said too.

These few days I think too much. It grows stronger especially in this chilly night, again. I guess the thread of fate between mine and him won’t go anywhere. I have tried to change my attitude to avoid arguments because I think my bad temper cause it. I have tried to tolerate with him even tho each time I wish he is the one who let me win without saying " I will keep quiet". But it seemed like useless. We always argue. We did, for the stupid reasons. Include tonight, I don’t know why I was like mood swing. Why must blame it on me?? He never understands my deep feeling. My inner-self. He just sees me from my outer part. Same condition as me.

I guess it’s because we never properly sit down and talk to each other. I have tried many times. He will just said, “You think too much”, “What you want from me?” or else, each conversation will end with quarrel. And I think I’m the one who always don’t care my own feeling(ego) and trying to fix things out. Because I really want him in my life. But… its kindda tiring now. I also need my boyfriend to talk sweet words, make me happy everyday.

Today, is my bad day. Today, he looked so fierce. Today, he didn’t kid with me. Today, each of his word really hurt me. All I can do is pretend and ignore. But I have feeling. When I keep my feeling inside, I will be worse mood. And what I did was… treat him cold. He said my feeling change easily. I said, I just follow him. The most word he used to me for today is…” What happens to you again la…(uneasy tone)?”… Will he sit down and comfort me? Will he slowly understand me? Will he hear my story and won’t get angry? Will he…..??

What really happen to us?? Are Aries and Pisces will never be compatible?? I guess so…

*p/s: hope can score for my midterm*

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Why?

"Eleven Hints for Life"

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

- Unknown